She had to fight many, many things and people to be able to keep me. I don’t know how she managed to do it; being an adolescent alone is difficult enough to deal with as a teenager… but having a child and sticking with it all throughout the strugs, including the child itself?
My friend is always telling me that I’m gonna get my karma and end up with someone like I was… Fuck that shit.
I was not an easy kid to raise.
It was really very, very difficult for both of us – a lot of social and cultural factors came into play. I also had the whole teenage angst, rebellion thing happening.
We laugh about some of it now but we’ve agreed, cohesively, on one thing.
“Yeah that would be an easy solution but you and I living under the same roof…”
“Oh that is true,” she replied. lols
In life, we constantly part ways from people, places, things, habits, mentalities etc and I like to think that I’m able to let go well enough when the time is right.
Evidently, however, I am stuck with this one.
I love you, mom.
I’d give you the world if I could.